Psalm 34:4-5

"I sought the Lord and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears.  Those who look to Him are RADIANT;  their faces are never covered with shame."  
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Thursday, April 1, 2010

April 1 - Allison Poorman


Well, here we go....I'd like to share something that God has been working on for a long time in my life, but that I just recently, as of 2 weeks ago had a revelation in. I have struggled for most of my life with the voice inside my head saying "I'm not enough..." I'm not smart enough, I'm not skinny enough, I'm not athletic enough, I'm not pretty enough, I'm not spiritual enough, the list goes on.....and so I put those thoughts on and have worn them for all these years. I have off an on throughout the years made and effort to ask for God's help to get His perspective and what He thinks about me, but most of the time, it's just easier to wear that "I'm not enough."

Up until 2 weeks ago...I strived to be "enough"...I worked very hard at it, but still would fall short in some way or another. It all came to a head after the first Radiant Girlz Nite. My fears of not being enough for all of you and my past wounds came flooding in and I couldn't fight them off. I prayed, I confided in my husband and a few friends...and after a couple days of saddness, I said out loud to myself (I do that sometimes) :o) "Truth is, I'm not enough." "Truth is, I'M NOT ENOUGH"....GOD IS. Wow!!!  What a weight I was carrying!!! I know I'll never be perfect, nor do I want to be...but this was just another form of that. 

This is all brand new, but I'm trying to walk in the reality that I'm not enough and believe, that is a good place to be. It points others and me back to our Savior instead of myself.

Prayer Requests
1. That I would choose to fight the lies and wounds of my past and put on God's truth.
2. That I would continue to hope....even when feels to vulnerable.

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