Hey beautiful ladies,
God is amazing. He speaks and gets through to us even when we are not listening.
Some of you know that Jonathan and I have been going on a financial roller coaster ride this past couple of years. This past week, there were three unexpected things that came up. Our air conditioning needed fixed (a must in Florida), Jonathan’s car needed to be worked on, and one other surprise thing that we will have to pay a lot more for than we thought. We didn’t (and don’t) have the extra money, but they had to be taken care of.
Of course it came to a head for me emotionally at the end of a long day. I felt like I had a huge load of hopelessness dumped on me. I thought, “This is it, we are never going to get out from under this.” I kind of ranted and raved for a few minutes and Jonathan tried to speak truth to me, but I was not hearing it. I had zero faith at that moment that God would make a way and provide for us. After a few more minutes of lying in bed, knowing sleep was not coming soon, I decided to pray. Nothing earth shattering happened, I just told God how I was feeling.
With the busyness of life that my household has been under lately (loved GodSpell, but glad that it is over), it was easy to shove down my fears and get on with life. Then…
This last Sunday morning at church, we sang “The Desert Song.” It just hit me, I was in a desert. If you know me, you know that I am pretty easy going and I think emotionally stable person, if that makes any sense. So to recognize and admit it was a big deal.
Here are the lyrics; the writer says it so much better than I ever could.
The Desert Song
Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
Chorus:
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
Bridge:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow
That is exactly what I needed to hear at exactly the right moment. I love it when God speaks unexpectedly. I felt a glimmer of hope that He will provide. Maybe not in ways that I expect or would choose, but He will.
Prayer Requests:
That God will provide in tangible ways.
I want to be refined through the flames. I want to let go of the things I need to.
That I will be thankful and humble in the process.